Since my return form the 'foren' land ,I've been wondering what's wrong with this part of the world .Why can't people here be like the one's i so admired there .What does it take of a man to be an altruist ?Why can't he be satisfied with the things he has (I totally understand the need of the destitute but its so painful to see 'my' people act to deceive ,specially the one's who are so well off)or at least be a little sympathetic.
Heartbreaking instances awaits you all the time. Even the one's so determined as to smile back are given a disgusting gibe.
It's been specially difficult to self evaluate and put things in place and analyse the 'best for you' points.While sitting in my office desk in Muenster ,sipping coffee and contemplating ,i got so excited thinking about things i'll rush to do when i reach back here.I was so foolish not to realise that all these thoughts were a product of the clear conscience that the so-conducive aura had endowed upon me at that instant.A week later ,after my return , things were as intertwined as before or even more so.
I hate it when it becomes difficult for me to think clearly and act properly ,a process absolutely interrelated .A much needed break came with a weekend of holidays at home and i was back to my rational self.Those four days of brainstorming helped me to stamp the final verdict .
When i ponder over it now and retrospect,i feel a little shaky about the decision to go back to where i like being .I've got a lot of consoling to do back home but these flashes of vindication give me vigor to go ahead with the scheduled .
I so hope i'm doing the right thing !
May i have HIS blessing !
