Since my return form the 'foren' land ,I've been wondering what's wrong with this part of the world .Why can't people here be like the one's i so admired there .What does it take of a man to be an altruist ?Why can't he be satisfied with the things he has (I totally understand the need of the destitute but its so painful to see 'my' people act to deceive ,specially the one's who are so well off)or at least be a little sympathetic.
Heartbreaking instances awaits you all the time. Even the one's so determined as to smile back are given a disgusting gibe.
It's been specially difficult to self evaluate and put things in place and analyse the 'best for you' points.While sitting in my office desk in Muenster ,sipping coffee and contemplating ,i got so excited thinking about things i'll rush to do when i reach back here.I was so foolish not to realise that all these thoughts were a product of the clear conscience that the so-conducive aura had endowed upon me at that instant.A week later ,after my return , things were as intertwined as before or even more so.
I hate it when it becomes difficult for me to think clearly and act properly ,a process absolutely interrelated .A much needed break came with a weekend of holidays at home and i was back to my rational self.Those four days of brainstorming helped me to stamp the final verdict .
When i ponder over it now and retrospect,i feel a little shaky about the decision to go back to where i like being .I've got a lot of consoling to do back home but these flashes of vindication give me vigor to go ahead with the scheduled .
I so hope i'm doing the right thing !
May i have HIS blessing !
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Aah, the "Phoren-effect", much to my lack of expertise in this domain, coz I've only been to Nepal when it comes to "Phoren-Land" I've heard people say these things many a times before, so I take it your going back? That remains a bit unclear from the post.
Anyways, welcome back :)
p.s.: There appear to be some mistakes in the post, you could check them, e.g.: "Auro" , i think you meant "Aura"? Sorry, I have a habit of correcting mistakes if I see any, can't be helped, intentions always good :)
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well, to answer your question ,yes i so intend to go back but to a different place this time ...
As for the spell check ,i have a habit of thinking too much while writing.I think it's Auroville that might have crossed my mind ,the single most peaceful place i've ever been to ...Beg your pardon Missy ;)
Secondly, i don't re-read my drafts as i don't intend them to be read by other people .
P.S.- Nepal doesn't count :P
Ironically ,you just made me delete my previous comment due to spelling errors.
See i'm changing already...
Thanx a lot !
:D
Hehe, I know it doesn't count, tabhi toh lack of expertise :) Well, Auroville it is then, as I said, it is a disorder I have, and hence even i don't re-read my posts so as to make them better for others, i just don't like mistakes if i recognise them, if somebody points them out in my posts, I'm equally quick to change them.
You see, the idea is always to express not impress :)
Aura is what i intended but ,you know ...Auro is a defensive ,thats all !
P.S.-I so love writing post scripts ;)
- I see that the time of your comment is 5 .Its ok if thats your normal bed time but if you wake up so early ,its pretty bewildering for an engineering student like me.
What is it then ?
Damn ,these spell checks !
That's strange some time glitch i assume, i woke up at 11:10 am today :D Now, it's 9:46 pm, lets see what it's posted as, :) M a full on engg student at heart, waking up at 5 am is a personal insult :P in fact, even yours is showing 6:49 am, I am assuming that isn't true either. :)
aha, an 11 and a 1/2 hr lag, since my blog shows the correct time, i assume your's is set to US.
:D you got it !
Glad you are the same breed ;)
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